In my case accepting my darck side it's not the problem cos i love it so much , i love being evil and to try my best to be artistic in hurting people , maybe cos i was hurt many times in my life so i wanna get even and try to restore balance by hurting others .
So i found a way to hide this side of me and i learned to be a nice person , and i did it . i learned forgiveness wich is a hard thing to do cos it's easier to blame others for everything , for all the problems we have , for all our failures .
In a way my life was easier like that , and god how much i enjoyed beying the bitch , the one who hurt anyone with or without a reason and the best thing that i can get away of problems with some sweet words , smile and the puppy face .
Anyway when i decided to let go all that hate inside me and forgive all those who hurted me , i decided to never go back to that person i was to that freaky bitch cos i know what i can do to people , untill last weak when with a simple phone call someone has succeded to bring back that bitch with all her madness , hate and specially all her evil .
Now im finding my self thinking of the different ways i can turn that person's life into hell , and i can make him suffer , and hate the day that he ever saw me or spoke to me , the problem is not in hurting him cos that would be so fun and im gonna fucking enjoy it , cos just by thinking about all the stuff im gonna do to him i have a big smile . The problem here is im gonna stay that bitch or not , in a way i love her cos she really know how to enjoy her self without caring about others , or will i ever be that sweet girl for another time !!!
interesting article, but i prefer being sweet to be a bitch having fun without caring about others, do not forget, life can be modeled by a wheel ;)
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